Azhdaya's Laire

Hello! I'm a pastor's daughter and was raised in a very strict environment. I knew from a little girl that I was attracted to this type of thought process and my parents tried desperately to beat it out of me. It didn't work though as you can see, I have hid it from everyone for years but after having the equivelant of a nervous breakdown, it began to pour out of me. I can no longer hide who I am. If I cannot be loved for who I am then they never loved me to begin with. When I married my wonderful second husband I joined the Catholic Church and squirmed in the pew for years, munched on the crackers and pretended to be good. I wondered how many of them were pretending to be good. I'm tired of pretending. I'm good, I'm bad, I'm all of it rolled up in one and I love mother earth and father god and the goddess, the cycles of the moon and the history behind our heritage. I am a PAGAN!!!! And I tell anyone who asks me. How LIBERATING! Blessed Be!