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Posted by Azhdaya Ravenwolf on August 11, 2010 at 6:27 AM Comments comments (9)

 

Last night I dreamed I was walking through a lovely little village ~ or perhaps a Festival of some sort ~ in a beautiful, flowing long floral dress of bright yellows, greens and reds . . . I was in a very joyful mood and I began sort of skipping and then went into a light run, my dress flowing softly behind me . . . As I ran through the street, the village (or Festibal) faded behind me and ahead of me I saw a beautiful deep valley dropping . . . I suddenly had the thought to try to Fly again ~ As I got to edge of the cliff, I gently pushed off with my feet and found myself floating over the valley and then on the other side, as I got back level with the ground, I was still Flyiing but low enough to where the people who watched me Fly over them could have reached up and touched me . . . I don't remember the landing, but suddenly I was at a huge mansion (or Castle, even) ~ I don't remember what I was doing there or exactly how I got in, but once I was inside and searching through the mansion, I came upon a hallway with several doors ~ as I approached each door, I saw that in each room there were a bunch of birds (all or mostly black ~ possibly in the Crow Family?) . . . At first I though they might be dead, but then I noticed some of them move . . . There was another door at the far end of the hall and I opened it to let the birds free and, as I did, they all Flew out . .. I don't remember what happened after that . . .

The reason this dream is so significant is that I have not had a  "Flying Dream"  (which used to be my favourite)  for over 10 years!!! . . . In 2000 I went through a very traumatic situation which essentially killed me in virtually every sense, except physical (although I have been dealing with various debilitating physical ailments since then, as well) . . . Anyway, prior to that I had noticed that my  "Flying Dreams"  had become increasingly strained and I had been finding it more and more difficult to either take off or stay afloat . . . After "The Incident" the  "Flying Dreams"  stopped altogether ~ in fact, I think for a while I seemed to stop dreaming altogether ~ or I didn't remember any of them . . . Then a couple of years ago I began having a series of  "Zombie Dreams" which progressed over a period of a few months and then ceased, as well . . . I had begun to think that I would never have the  "Flying Dreams"  again I had been really missing them . . . I think I eventually had given up on them, altogether . . . But then, last night, there I was ~ soaring over the valley!!!

Since 2000 I've felt as if I've been in a sort of limbo state or purgatory or something . . . I don't know if that means I may be at the verge of "coming back to life"!? . . . I guess we'll see if I have anymore!!!??  : )

To be continued!? . . .

Isn't it about Time? . . .

Posted by Azhdaya Ravenwolf on March 20, 2010 at 7:23 AM Comments comments (0)

Isn't It About Time?

by Flesymi

"We perceive time

according to the completeness

of our own presence."

~~ Gurdjieff ~~

"The level of Being of a man attracts his life, and history repeats itself because we remain on the same level of being."

~~ Living Time, Maurice Nicoll ~~

I am going to make a bold statement: Our perception of time is what limits us from moving gracefully into the next phase of human evolution…and it always has. But now we are about to experience a quantum shift in human evolution that will catapult us from being Homo Sapiens to Homo Universalis…a universal species. These have been called the "end times," often misunderstood as the end of the world, Armageddon. Actually, it is just the end of the perception of time as a limiting feature of our collective reality. Really, friends, it is about time! . . .

As a species we have arrived at the point where time is now resolved to the most miniscule increment, so miniscule that it literally disappears from reality at the most fundamental level of our physical being. However, time as we've known it is a very efficient way of keeping track of the many details of our lives. In this sense it is indispensable. In another sense it represents our greatest perceptual challenge. This other sense is our ever-expanding view of who we are and how we fit into the grand scheme of things. . . .

Why is time an evolutionary limit? Simply, because it is an illusion. Time is like a magic trick that we’ve been playing on ourselves, only we forgot that we’ve been playing. We’ve become so enthralled with the illusion that we’ve forgotten that there’s something real behind the charade. But before I explain what the reality is behind the illusion, let me make sure you understand that time doesn’t really have a substantive reality like you think it does. . . .

Your body is made of cells, and your cells are made of molecules, and these are made of atomic particles that that are comprised of things don’t seem to behave like they should in a world governed by the laws of time and space. In fact, at the most fundamental level of your being, time and space don’t even exist. Did you catch that? You are made of an essence that is devoid of time and space. How do we gain a "reality" of time and space when our essence is devoid of it? The answer is, of course, that time and space don’t have a reality apart from our perception that they do, and the reality that they take on, is commensurate with our perception of them. . . .

Prove me wrong with time: touch the past; don’t bother trying to touch many years ago, just try to put your finger on five seconds ago. Or try touching five seconds in the future. Now don't get clever and touch a fossil; this is not touching the past, it is touching a grouping of energetic molecular interactions now. . . .

Time, as we’ve been taught to experience it, stretches from the distant past - twenty billion or so years ago when it allegedly came into existence with the Big Bang - to some unfathomable period in the future. We, now, somehow stand poised in the middle of this great expanse and look over our shoulder at things that have been, and off into the distance to contemplate what might be. . . .

This sense of time as existing along some sort of linear continuum is incomplete. And while a different understanding of time may not appear immediately relevant, I assure you that it will impact your life in the most profound ways, from the experience of health and wholeness to abundance to active co-creation along exciting evolutionary pathways. . . .

What stops us from realizing time’s true nature has to do with how our brains work. Our conscious minds work quite efficiently by comparing and indexing things in very linear ways. For example, if I were to show you an apple, then an orange, then a mango, you would only recognize them as an apple, orange or mango if you had already seen and identified them, i.e. by comparison with a previous experience, a memory. Further, you would remember the order of the experience of this show and tell because your brain would record the sequence in which I showed you the fruit. These are apparently separate experiences, and your brain puts them into a linear sequence based on a presumption of an arrow of time, from past to future. Along this arrow of time, the apple appeared first (in time), the orange later, then the mango. It might be pretty hard to refute this observation; however, it is your brain that is comparing and sequencing these experiences, the reality is that they all exist now, not in a linear progression in the past. . . .

Time is our way of experiencing things separately, instead of all at once; and in this respect it is quite valuable. . . .

It is the linear processing tendencies of the human brain that limits one from understanding the true, fuller dynamic that time represents. Regardless of how multidimensional and dynamic our lives really are, our brains are constantly trying to fit things into nice neat little card-files, where one is always followed by two, which is followed by three, and so on. While this linear mental processing is quite valuable in many instances, you must leave this kind of thinking behind if you want to enter a new sphere of higher being where time is yet another feature of our multidimensional Self, awaiting to be explored as a new frontier.

One of the greatest justifications for a more mature perception of time is that relegating things to the imaginary land of the past or future deprives us of rich, multidimensional experiences of our own greater being. For example, it is thought that the universe appeared out of nothing 15 to 20 billion years ago. As preposterous as this sounds, it is quite a common belief in cosmology. But if the essence that makes up human bodies, rocks, grass and stars is devoid of the qualities of time and space, how can the universe have had its origin in the "past"? We are looking in the wrong place for our celestial beginnings and we are missing some mighty powerful insights and adventures by forcing our universe into the narrow confines of our perception. . . .

"If the doors of perception were cleansed,

everything would appear as it is, infinite."

~~ William Blake ~~

The illusion of time can also have very personal implications. Having a loved one pass on can feel like an enormous loss, or it can feel like a new relationship with that same person, depending on your perspective of time. You feel it as loss when you think of that person as dying in the "past." You’ll never know of the relationship that you could have with that loved one now if you don’t expand your view and relinquish the linear-thinking stranglehold that you have on reality. By "losing" this person to the "past," you confine your reality to a narrow strip of consciousness that denies your own fullness of being and the experience now of that person in a new way. . . .

Another common denial perpetrated by time’s illusion relates to childhood trauma. We struggle with emotional scars from old wounds and distance ourselves from healing by placing these traumas in an imaginary past that can’t be touched. That child in us still lives now, and is patiently waiting for us to wake up to this fact. When our slumber is over, we’ll find that all healing is simply the removal of the imaginary separation from our own full being, and that separation is in "time." Looking "back" only causes more scar tissue to armor our hearts because we remain hurt over a "past" that we cannot touch or remedy. . . .

Have you ever wondered why we don’t have eyes in the back of our heads? Why are they only in the front? It is the universe’s way of inviting us to join it in seeking new experiences. It says, "Don’t look back, we’ve been there, done that. That’s old news; just look forward to the exciting new possibilities that are before us now. Join me in a new relationship with the vast energies swirling and congealing in the ever-present now." This cosmic invitation brings us to what time really is. The reality behind time is relationship. . . .

We live in a relativistic universe, which Einstein’s Theory of Relativity so eloquently describes. The sense of relationship is to us like water is to fish. As the material universe precipitates from the Cosmic Mind, it flows from an undifferentiated, infinite field of possibilities, to (apparently) finite actualities embedded in the fabric of the Mind’s substance. Quantum physics calls this fabric "space-time." . . .

In order for something that is infinite to experience itself as something other than infinitude it must, of necessity, create imaginary finite boundaries. We call these boundaries imaginary, even though they seem very real to us, because they are imaginary to the Infinite Mind that created them; the Infinitude remains undivided. Infinity can’t be split up; divide infinity by two and you still have infinity. Divide it by six billion, as is being done on Earth now, and you still have infinity as a whole and infinity represented in the six billion human beings; this is the holographic model of reality. These imaginary boundaries allow one aspect of Infinitude to experience other aspects of its own Infinitude; this is relationship at the macrocosmic level, and it is this self-same relationship that applies across all levels of being. . . .

This leads us to a definition of time and space that is most wholesome and serves as a great foundation for the next stage of human evolution. Guy Merchie in The Seven Mysteries of Life defines time as the relationship of things to themselves, and space as the relationship of things to other things. A few "seconds" have passed since you started reading this paragraph; the relationship of you then to you now, is the relationship of your self to your self (things to themselves), and we call this "time." Relationship is the reality, the word "time" is a concept or a measure that points to or attempts to measure the reality. The fact that we conveniently divide that rich, dynamic interplay of cosmic energies into neat little increments called seconds does not make our reality incremental - spread across "time" - except as our thinking makes it so. . . .

Similarly, the relationship between you and your neighbor - things to other things - is what we call space. Of course, all these relationships are being experienced in an undivided whole, a unity; therefore, "space" cannot be experienced separate from "time." We only talk about them separately for the sake of description. As Carlos Castaneda says in Tales of Power,

"The world does not yield to us directly: the description of the world stands in between." . . .

We can take these new definitions with us when we explore our evolution. The vastness of "time," from the beginning of the universe, the Big Bang, until now is only a measure of our separation in consciousness from our Creative Source. It is a measure of the relationship between the self and the Self, and the arrow of time does not point out to some unknown, foreboding future, but to the brilliant core of our inmost Being.

We can experience personal evolution as the relationship of our lower selves to our higher selves. This is the perennial unfolding of that which is infinitely enfolded by our divine nature, as explained by renowned physicist, David Bohm, in his Implicate Order Theory. Our current self always has a higher nature, as hardly a few moments can go by without us becoming a few moments wiser by experience. This unfolding process is a rich interplay of cosmic energies that far exceed the boundaries of our physical bodies. Sadly, we have squeezed this rich dynamic into a concept called space-time, and consequently limited our own evolution by whatever perceptual barriers are popular for the day. But no more! . . .

Now we can transcend the imaginary limits of time and space and return to wholesome experiences of Life dancing through us. We are not dancers in Life; we are being danced! We can fully awaken to the fact that our reality is infinitely moldable to the consciousness with which we animate it; therefore, we no longer limit ourselves to immature, narrow images of our self and our relationship with the universe. As Emerson once remarked: "Our purpose in life is to have a unique relationship with the universe." . . .

We can view our species’ evolution as yet another level of the lower self relating to a higher version of its own self. Ultimately we must allow "time" to just be a convenient way of measuring things in our world, but we must remember that the measurement is not the thing. We stop making silly statements like "I don’t have enough time." This would be like a contractor showing up at a construction site and sending his carpenters home because there aren’t enough inches! Time is a measure, not the reality. We live with such nonsense because we are mesmerized by the report of our senses and we fail to examine forgotten conclusions and worn out presumptions. We perceive these tiny slivers of reality and make them objective facts that serve to imprison us. We are our own wardens, our own shackles and our own prisons. Don’t you think it’s about time to change our minds about things? . . .

Really, isn’t it about time?

"Contracting our infinite sense we behold multitude;

expanding it, we behold One."

~~ William Blake ~~

"Spirituality automatically leads to humility. When a flower develops into a fruit, the petals drop off on its own. When one becomes spiritual, the ego vanishes gradually on its own. A tree laden with fruits always bends low. Humility is a sign of greatness."

~~ Sri Ramakrishna ~~

 

Shamanic Initiation ~

Posted by Azhdaya Ravenwolf on March 12, 2010 at 6:29 AM Comments comments (0)

 

 

I was recently reminded of my experience when a young Friend & Apprentice of mine was having a difficult time.  Someting he said about feeling like he's  "dead"  or not quite of this world / life,  reminded me of my own  "Death" . . .

So,  I thought I would share what my story & expereicne here, as well! . . .

Here's what I told him:

Sometimes we have to "Die" in order to come back to Life ~ or to come into our Real Life ~ the Life & Purpose we're meant to Live! . . . I've done it more times than I can remember ~ at least twice just in "this Life"! . . .

BTW, there's an ancient belief among Shamans of all the various Ancient Cultures (Native American, African, Celtic, Etc.). that "Dying" (whether physically and coming back) or Spiritually, Emotionally, Etc. can also be part of the Journey of INITIATION into SHAMANISM . . .

A few years ago, I had a traumatic event happen, whcih caused me to "Die" a sort of Death and after a few years, for at least six months, I kept having these weird "Zombie Dreams"! . . . In the beginning, the Zombies were just sort of milling about, not seeming to notice or care about my presence. Then it progressed to the Zombies walking toward me. Then they kept walking passed me for a while . . . Finally, my LAST ZOMBIE DREAM, as they were walking passed me, one Female Zombie stopped flush with me, turned to me and spoke. All she said was: "Your Mother is calling you" . . .

I didn't have any more "Zombie Dreams" after that! . . . I didn't know what the heck it all meant ~ it was frankly freaking me out, because I thought she was talking about my Birth Mother, who is still alive! . . . Then one day, I had an Epiphany and suddenly I understood what the Female Zombie meant by "Your Mother" ~ She wasn't talking about my Birth Mother, she was talking about the Great Mother / Goddess, Etc. . . . That's when I realized it was a SHAMANIC INITIATION!

If you have expereienced something similar,  don't be afraid to explore it!  :)

Blessings ~

 

 

My personal Meditation ~

Posted by Azhdaya Ravenwolf on December 31, 2009 at 12:44 AM Comments comments (0)

I recently was asked for help on choosing a Magyckal Name and, as part of the process, I included a Meditation in the answer . . . So, I thought I would share it here, as well,  for anyone who might want some help with coming up with their own ~

I usually begin my nighly Meditations  by  Creating a Protective Circle,  so that no unwanted Spirits or Energies can come in . . . I envision a  bright  Silver Light  coming down  and  en-circling me in a  spiral formation and then going all the way deep down into the Earth,  so that there is one continuous,  unbroken  Cone-like  Strand of Silver Ligth  totally en-circling me w/ me in the center of the Cone . . .

Then,  once the  Protective Circle is in place & complete,  I address the  Deity / Spirit / Energy  that I most connect with & Worship,  as well as Calling on the Four Corners, by saying: 

 

"Oh,  Goddess Danu  (you can insert / call on whichever  Being / Spirit / Energy  you want ~ Danu happens to be the Goddess that my Ancestors in the area of my Native Homeland Worshipped & after whom the River Danube is named),  I am  Greatful for the Winds & the Sky,  so crisp and full of Life;  I am  Greatful for Seas & the River & Lakes,  so  Healing & Nurturing;  I am  Greatful for  Rocks & the Tress,  so  Strong & Wise,  and I am  Greatful for the  Ancient Fire,  that gave  Birth to It All! " . . .

I then proceed to  Give Thanks for  any/all  things / people / events / etc.  that I have been  Blessed with encountereing that day . . . For instance,  I may say something like:  "I am also Greatful for:  the  Raven who called to me this morning! "  Or,  "I am Greatful for the  Customer who gave me a hard time and taught me now to judge anyone or anything by first impressions!" . . .

Then,  at this point, I might insert or add any  Questions,  Requests,  Blessings for Myslef or Others,  etc. . . .

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I usually end my  Meditations with saying:  "I am  Greatful for:  my Husband,  my Cats,  Family & Friends . . .

Blessed Be"

Merry Meet & Welcome ~

Posted by Azhdaya Ravenwolf on September 28, 2009 at 1:38 AM Comments comments (3)

As my first  Blog Entry,  I thought I would start by introducing myself & telling you a bit about how I got here,  re-iterating what I wrote on my  Home Page & About Me ~

As I mentioned on the Home Page, my name is Azhdaya Ravenwolf and I am an "Apprenticing Priestess."

To tell you a bit about myself and how I came to be an "Apprenticing Priestess" I suppose I have to go back to my childhood, being raised as a Catholic Christian . . . My Mother forced me to go to Church every Sunday and, as I sat there listening to the Priest, the Message I kept hearing over & over every week was that: Females were made from Men & for Men and were far inferior to Males and, therefore, unworthy & forbidden "by God" to serve as "Priestesses" in the Christian Church!

. . . Well, as as girl (being Female as I was), that didn't sit with me very well ~ not to mention that it just never rang True ("True" is capitalized here on purpose, as it refers to the Real Truth ~ the real "Gods Truth") . . . There was just something not right there and, even as a young child, I absolutely knew it!!!

So, as I got into my Teens and really started to discover who I was, as much a I loved my Mother (and still do and always will), it just became more & more difficult each week to continue going to Church and sit there and subject myself to that kind of repeated, continuous abuse & violation of my True Self & Being! . . . And I finally stopped going ~ much to my Mother's heartbreak, according to her (although, she has since ~ finally ~ begun to see the vast disparity between what her Church & Religion is suppsed to stand for and what it is actually saying & doing and has, herself, stopped going)!

Anyway, as I continued into my Teens and my Self-discovery & development, I came upon a Book at a Bookstore I was in with my Brother one day ~ It was called: "To Ride a Silver Broomstick" . . . Until then, any books I came acroos on or about "Witchcraft" always seemed to be dark (black and/or red) with ominous-looking Pentagrams or pictures of Goat Heads on them. And reading through them, it was obvious that the author was a "Satanist" and the content didn't make any more sense to me, or ring True, than the sermons I remembered at Church every Sunday! And these type of Books were always in a section called: The Occult, which in itself seemed to have an ominous quality!

. . . I had been desperately searching for something that did ring True to me & would help bring real Meaning & Purpose to my Life ~ Not realizing it at the time, I was in actuality searching for the Truth (the True Truth) ~ as, I suppose, we ALL are! . . . And suddenly here was this, not dark and scary-looking book on Wytchcraft, but a lovely Purple-colored cover with a Beautiful Woman on a Broom ~ and the section it was in was called: "New Age" (which definitely did not sould as ominous as "The Occult"! . . . As I opened it and started reading, I actually got chills as I suddenly got this overwhelming feeling of excitement & elation ~ In the deepest part of my Self and my Soul/Being I felt with ABSOLUTE CERTAINTY that I was in the presence of TRUTH!!!

. . . I still know this without a shred of doubt because I begin to Cry as I speak of it ~ as I am doing right now . . . I've always found this to be the case whenever I hear something that is from the True Source (God, Goddess, The Universe, The Force . . . whatever you want to call it)!

So, that pretty much brings us to where I am today ~ and how I got here! . . . I've been studying "The Craft" in all its various forms & Traditions ever since ~ let's see, oh over 20 years off & on ~ But, I never really gave it the real Time & Dedication it deserved & required in order to become a full-fledged "Priestess" . . . Until now! They say: When the Student is ready the Teacher will come ~ In my case, I finally realized that sometimes the "Teacher" does not necessarily come in the form of another person, but perhaps it is more of a case of knowing when the Time was right ~ and the "Teacher" is myself! . . . Hence this Web-Site ~ I've always had a bit of a problem with keeping myself on-track & disciplined enough to follow-through with things . . . So, I thought perhaps, if I created a place where I can sort of keep all my "Lessons" & Information/Resources I've collected and am working on ~ and if I make it a place where I can work with others who are doing the same thing, maybe I'll be more successful at stayng on track and finally be worthy of the status of "Priestess"!

As a first step and , as is the Tradition in Earth & Natural Magick, I have taken my "Magyckal Name" from a combination of the various Totem or Spirit Animals who Guide me . . . Azhdaya is a Serbo-Croatian word for Dragon (Honouring my Homeland & Heritage). The Dragon's Medicine (or Gift) is Cosmic Wisdom (She teaches us to tread gently on the Earth and to Respect ALL Life); The Wolf's Gift is Protection & Loyalty; and the Raven's is Cleverness & Cunning . . . Each has something to teach me and I am very greatful & honoured to embrace their Gifts & to Share them!

I look forward to meeting you and to  Learning together & Sharing our Knowledge of:  Native, Natural & Earth Magick & Religions (aka: Wicca, Witchcraft, Wytchcraft, The Craft, Etc. ~ and including all the various Native Traditions, such as Celtic, Native American, Aboriginal, Etc.)!

PLEASE FEEL FREE to ADD to this BLOG & SHARE ANY/ALL INFORMATION YOU'D LIKE!  : )

 

Blessed Be ~  


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